I'm semi-villainous

In a discussion with a friend I met online (not through this site), I realized I'm...kind of a douchebag. I'm only human, and of course I'm not the only one with these feelings.

I get a very strange, almost high, satisfaction of publicly humiliating people. Only if they deserve it, of course. I've got a well-developed intuition and I can almost read people like a book. It's fun for me to find a pretentious know-it-all and manipulate them into contradicting themselves. It's also fun for me to meet a smug luminary and boldly let them know how much I won't waste my time falsely exalting them.

I recently attended a concert in which I received backstage passes. The music involved was part of a scene I'm not really into, but the tickets were free so I decided I'd go. Backstage, we saw Tommy Lee. We came closer and closer to meeting him, which was a big deal to the people who brought me to the show. However, I felt stupid for standing backstage...missing the music...waiting for human beings as special as myself to what, disregard my presence? Exchange an insignificant glance? Maybe shake my hand and immediately forget me? I continued to stand with them, humiliated, thinking about how unimportant these people are to me. I'm wasting my time for people who haven't done a thing for me. But I had no choice, I wasn't about to ditch the people who voluntarily saved my boring day. (And you know how much gas is these days...) So I plotted a small scenario in my mind, in hopes Tommy Lee would find the time for his "fans." He was speaking with the drummer of Slipknot, (who...I exchanged very awkward glances with...) and several fans were standing with us awaiting his attention. I thought of what I would say if he approached me, something like, "Don't think I'm a big fan or anything. You're a great drummer, but you put your pants on one leg at a time...you're only human. It's not like I don't know any good drummers myself. You haven't done a damn thing for this world and only pathetic idiots would worship you, you're an ass for thinking so high of yourself. Sex and drugs is all you live for, I hope you're satisfied. You certainly haven't won my respect."

(He refused to take pictures because he was with other women and his wife was back home. Such an honorable guy.)

That would have been the ultimate satisfaction of my life, putting down a "prestige," or so he thinks.

Celebrity worship is pointless and ridiculous, and so is focusing on proving to them that some people really don't respect him at all. It will always be satisfying though...and I hope one day I can truly get into someone like Tommy Lee's head. (If I haven't already)