Sav is

bored with this lifeless town and the density of its people.

I love my new friends. SO so much.

If only I had a scanner that worked with my computer

Then you could share the joy of analyzing the apathy and insincerity of my Senior pictures.

LOL @ life

4 bottles of water per day + one or two protein shakes + yogurt for breakfast/some sort of meat salad for lunch/meat and salad for dinner and snacks in between + great sleep + exercise morning and night = HEALTHY!

I feel better already.

It's only been two days though.

Out of four of us on this escapade, one has quit...she is fairly unreliable though.

Thinking about death a lot lately, it's so strange...health to death, bad transition...it depends on my mood...sometimes I'll start thinking about death and not give a rat's ass, sometimes I think about death and freak myself out. So I'm not too sure whether or not I've excepted the inevitable fact or not. Religion doesn't concern me, just the process of death...and the fall of my empire (metaphorically)...I mean, this is something we all think about. Most of us, I believe, want more than anything for their life to mean something. During your life, you accomplish, you fail, you endure, you "love" (whatever that means)...you create, you destroy, you experience, you experiment, and what happens to all that? What happens to your significance? I guess we'll find out. Or not. I said "thinking about death a lot lately." Death is actually on my mind daily, I would like to not dwell on things like that so much.

And people are so strange, how they rely so much on what others think. My ex-friend has made it pretty public that she "DOESN CARE" (her MySpace status). A...pal? has made it clear that she supports Obama and is indeed a Lib...although her actions and words definitely don't show that...nor is she the avid humanist she claims to be...it's a trend. My best friend and I call this recent humanist and hippie trend the "false peace movement." Our generation is sinking lower and lower. Peace signs are being advertised by the people who create drama and violence. The victory symbol is being thrown left and right by phonies whose personalities don't support their claims. Whatever, world. I won't contribute to this fake revolution.

You're so vain, I bet you think this blog is about you

Instead, it's all about MEEEE and the happenins in my fun life!

**My sincere apologies for not updating this thing constantly, I've been as busy as a bee. Busy as a young, female, Chinese bee performing gymnastics in the Olympics.

I thought senior year would blow big, hairy testis since I rid myself of horrid friends. Instead, odds were incredibly in my favor and I'm happy as ever. I made new friends, and oddly each of them were previously friends with horrid people as well, and now we all have our own little sect (and so different from each other, we are). Each of us had terrible feelings about this year, and senior year began swimmingly well for us. (As for our ex-friends, theirs seemed to begin quite rocky. Smileyface.)

( Speaking of horrid friends, I've decided that in person, I wouldn't put anyone off. I'd still treat my ex-friends with respect. And I have. Here's a fact to lead into the next paragraph: I've always been the person they come to for advice. Unlike them, I listen and give my honest take on things, and their problems have always been fairly simple to deal with so I'd pull some rational Dr. Phils. Only, without the insane metaphors.
So, here's what's up. One of my ex-friends makes a stupid decision and can't own up to the consequences, so she's crying, and I'm like...you know, I'll help her. I hate to be any form of a pseudo-intellectual or a conceited douche, but I know for a fact that they wouldn't be as mature as they are without the advice I've given them in the past. So I text my ex-friend, ask her if she wants to talk about it, and she gives me a problem and I give her the whole "Accept that it's your fault and own up to it, take it as prep for the future" lecture. And some other words to soothe her sadness. So, at least she thanked me. Pretty much all my "Being there for people" has been disregarded and unappreciated except for by one of my ex-friends (not the one I'm discussing in this story). So I figured, she'll probably want to talk to me a little more, she'll probably treat me like I'm more of a person. Well, she didn't. Things are still the same, and I need to stop expecting any more from people, especially the hopeless ones, and I refuse to lend anymore help no matter how unfortunate the case. I mean, seriously, they were NEVER EVER EVER EVER, and I mean this, EVER there for me. They've never treated me with respect, not that they're "super duper lucky to have been my friend," but I was their friend, and I deserved better. I just can't be friends who make me feel miserable. I don't know what the hell took me so long to figure that out. But I'm relieved now, and I have a new "group," and we treat each other like gold.)

And Je'uth Chrith, I can't give one god damn opinion without getting jumped on for it. Seriously, wanna hear something silly? My acquaintance says she's going hunting today (my acquaintance who is an avid PETA supporter, not kidding) and I say, "I just lost a little respect for you! (Obviously in a playful way.) Not only are you murdering animals, but you're supporting the gun laws!" Then I went on SUCH a small Twilight rant because she claims to be obsessed with the novels. And I know why she claimed that, it's rather immature, and I won't post the reason as to avoid embarassment for her AND myself. All I said in my tiny rant was that Twilight is poor literature and Meyer's take on vampires licks balls. I even added that it was just her opinion and that I'd leave that alone from then on. And, fuck me in the butt, she replies, so pathetically, "Um...okay...I don't criticize what you read, I only went hunting for the outside experience...thanks for being honest, but sometimes it's just best if you leave things alone." Like...what does that even mean? Even MORE reason for me to not leave things alone. Like, really? Was she really offended by this? Please suck my tit, you fucking baby. I always give my take on things. Don't get your selfish little panties in a wad. Or just don't talk to me. (Why do I say selfish? Because here's a problem with people. It's always about THEM and if someone else's views don't suit THEM, they whine like kitties in heat. Another reason our country is not progressing: People won't give anyone else's opinions the time of day.) Cuuunt. And in all honesty, I couldn't give TWO SHITS if someone criticized my decisions. Will I hear them out? Yes. Are my decisions based on thorough reasoning, so I usually have a case to argue with if need be? Yes.

Moving on to better things...

My Lomo is now filled with pictures that need to be developed, need to go to Wal-Mart stat. A friend from Colorado introduced me to a 365 day photography-blog thing, where you take one picture every day for a year, and post them on a blog. Which, I might do, if I find a working camera / scanner that will hook up to my computer. (I always have petty, insignificant problems like those, it's rather frustrating. I feel as though nothing ever fully works out for anyone, ever. We humans just can't have everything to go perfect, just for a day.)

Remember when I said I'm dieting? Well, I exaggerated a little.
Okay, I completely LIED. Call me a liar, a backstabber, untrustworthy, unloyal...
Well, now, I'm FOR REAL dieting. Seriously. Not because I'm a super-mega-fatty, but because I'm lazy and gluttonous (whether it appears to be so or not) and I need to be healthier. And I'm serious about it this time, others are on the adventure with me. No kidding. Call my lawyer.

Also, I've developed an almost obsessive hatred for the Twilight series. Just the name makes me cringe. Stephenie Meyer has defaced tasteful literature and Dracula's reputation. VAMPIRES WILL NEVER FUCKING SPARKLE IN MY WORLD. Not only does the poor writing infuriate me, but the FANS. God the FAAANS. They're ridiculous. Not once have I met a remotely sophisticated fan of the series. (Please entice me, if you're a fan. And give me reasons to appreciate Meyer's work. I've already read the first book, found it excrutiating to bear and incredibly tedious and felt an urge to vomit in my mouth several times. And the characters??? SOOO unlikable!) The most die-hard fans are so primitive. I stumbled across this fan (click here), mildly entertaining and mildly retarded.


So there's that. And I don't want to type about much else. So enjoy.

stiggy iggy iggy

People say the word "love" left and right. When really, it's either to deny another feeling, for lack of better terms, or they're too ignorant to see reality. "Love" doesn't tear us apart, people who don't understand it do. God damn.

That's what's up

*Nearly everyone I know fits paragraph two (not including this par) in some form, so the creation of this particular blog is absolutely meaningless. I can't think of one person who cares, which is extremely unfortunate and shows a lot about our generation. This is a waste of time, but at least I know I'm not a robot.

Being an Independent, I often find my opinion on the given presidential candidates wishy-washy and inconclusive. I recently claimed refusal to vote at all (for reasons you can personally ask if you're interested), and I came to realization that my decision was based on slight grounds. After investigating the candidates and their views, I've finally made a conclusion. (If this is relevant at all, this is my first time voting.)

***I cannot stress enough the need to form your own opinion here. People tend to follow the views of their guardians, general society, and the media. The media is as sleazy and manipulative as Michael Moore. The media provides the most twisted, biased, and deceptive fallacies. If you're indecisive or politically uneducated, commit to some avid Google research. Find out what these politicians are all about and FOLLOW YOUR OWN MIND. And if you couldn't care less, this is such an important time to get involved. The issues at hand are crucial to your future. Apathy is such a problem with our generation, for the sake of our country and our future, develop some emotions and contribute.

Another brief statement before I get down to the nitty gritty: Neither candidate can possibly change things with the snap of their fingers, which is for some reason, expected by many citizens. Both candidates and their parties contain potential methods of change that are either too idealistic, ultimately ineffective, or only slightly effective in the present. It's only logical that we resolve problems slowly and surely, and not give in to falsely hopeful solutions based on minimal regards for every side to each situation. (Ahem, Obama.) What would be best is if they'd learn to compromise with each other like adults instead of constantly debating, but we all know that's too much to ask.

(I'm no good at transistions, so bear with me.)

I've decided to vote for McCain this year. I find him to be the most trustworthy politician in the biz. He's an incredible role model who has made significant sacrifices to our country. And pretty damn ballsy, one of very few conservatives with the guts to tackle many issues most politicians fail to address. If anyone deserves the White House more, it's McCain.

McCain is an avid supporter of free trade, as am I. So that's that.

Now when it comes to taxes, I have not reached a conclusion on either opinion. (Although I am against sin tax while McCain supports it.) Obama has voted numerous times to increase taxes, and McCain wants to decrease taxes. I find both opinions questionable, but my education on taxes is rather blurry...if you know enough about the situation, you can do the math yourself. However, from what I've heard, Obama's tax plan is ineffective.

McCain is against earmarks, but oddly voted in favor of a bill supporting such research. It's not about the research that gets me, it's the cost. I agree with his opposition, though.

Now McCain supports the reform of many matters (such as MediCare, entitlement, Social Security...) that are crucial to the well-being of each individual. High five. He is also a supporter of organizations who fight for the rights families who wish to place their children in a school beyond their geographical range.

McCain is very experienced militaristically, his biggest strengths lie with the most serious issues in our governent, such as the war and national security--which is highly considerable. McCain being in office would be the best thing for the war, our results would be far less moderate, we'd be far more successful. (Obama isn't the humanist he lets on, his idea of removing Iraqi troops is an example.)

When it comes to McCain's character, he is incredibly strong and consistent. (Which is notable for trustworthiness.) His views are firm and he's not afraid to be honest. He's kind of hilarious, too. His respect for the president is so classy, while it seems every Democrat is focused on Bush-bashing. But it's not that the Bush administration "screwed up this country," it's that they never take action so the problems escalate. (It could be worse, Kerry could have won and our problems would have rapidly escalated.) I think now, it's possible that most issues will improve either way...even though I have a sizable amount of disagreements with Obama's opinions/strategies. I also think there would be a lot of problems if he became president, because of our intolerant country.

I agree more with McCain's views and I believe he is the better choice. My views often lean towards liberalism, but I feel like America is in desperate need of a conservative in the following four years.

Blogging is boring

when no one reads your blogs.

Or when you don't have much to talk about / have too much to talk about to feel like typing.

Bud Ekins, Lupe Fiasco, George Carlin, David Bowie, Conan O'Brien, and Philip Seymour Hoffman are all my heroes. Even though Tina Turner says we don't need those. Too bad I can't think of any female heroes to add to that. ...My mom? I guess she's impacted my life somehow or another. I'd like to add Nas to that list.

People should learn how to spell "definitely."

Um, a friend recently texted me about her mother who got beaten and raped. Such an unfortunate event. She said it was on the news, so I did some research. I found the article via the internet, and the comments? Brutal! These people are heartless jerks! They cared more about their conservative opinions on how it was the victim's fault rather than wishing her well or claiming support towards bringing the criminal to justice. Any person who gave their best regards to the victims would be verbally attacked. It somehow turned into a political debate. It was infuriating, and so childish! These people are ADULTS, arguing with each other through the stupid internet, not over the incident itself but over getting the last word! People are beasts, and that is the problem with this country. There were definitely two sides to this argument, and instead of accepting that both sides are correct, these adults insist on bashing each other and turning the situation into controversy! People need to grow up, and stop being so egotistical. Most ridiculous thing I've ever read.